I am not good at tearing papers in a straight line

Where do you record pieces of information which you need only for a few minutes?

There are times in office when I have to quickly write down some information like phone numbers, a figure, a name etc. Mostly the information's utility lasts for maximum an hour before we can move on with our normal lives.

For this, I tear pieces of papers from the back of my reletively empty note pad in an extremely disturbing manner. Its very embarrasing, specially if someone is watching. I have realised- I am just not gifted in tearing papers straight.

I also have a stick-on but I use it very sparingly. Before writing anything on it, I mentally calculate whether the piece of information is worth wasting a stick-on paper. I generally end up not using it.

My office life would be much easier, if I could tear papers in a straight line.

The call

Someone calls me in silence.

I find myself too preoccupied with more unimportant things to do than answer my own voice of silence. I stare at the truth and choose the unreal. I consciously pick the underdog.

The day I was aware of the call (thanks to pranic healing), my life changed. Its like someone telling you the end of a murder mystery book/movie. I cannot ignore it anymore. I reached a point of no return.

Sometimes when I am enjoying with my friends in a party, I hear a whisper. Everything fades into the background. I know the unreal. I continue with awareness for a while before my distractions gets louder.

Day after day, I forget to pay attention to my silence, but atleast itz somewhere there popping up at every given opportunity never giving up on me.

Sometimes, I look into a mirror with amazement as my search into how I find myself living echoes through my eyes. I feel scared of myself.

I have had sleepless nights with such thoughts.

My life needs a footnote

I have a problem- I forget to catch myself think what I think.

Sometimes, when the "evening shadows deapen", I ask myself some fundamental questions. How has any of those hundred billion thoughts I had through out the day made any difference to me or this planet in the long or short run?

I have spent 20 years of my life without a footnote.

Thats where my thoughts came in. I had had it with my inattentive thoughts. I typed in bold letters using impact font and took the print.

I hung what was not just a piece of paper but my sole source of light showing me the first step to the path leading to as some Tibetans would like to call it Tao and hung it on the board next to my computer.

"Be aware of your thoughts"

I wonder what I was thinking.

Map and a mirror

Its very scary.

If you look into a mirror, that is placed in front of another mirror, the reflection goes on till infinity. I had a similar feeling.

I was looking into a map. The map also pointed to the location where the map was placed. So if the map was live, something similar should happen.

There is a reason why maps and mirrors are not real.

Tortoise's planetory support (a new year thought)

All the office decorations is reducing my productivity.

I dont believe in new years. What changes really? Only the unit of measurement. Itz not like our planet is starting a new revolution around the sun. We dont know from what point Earth started revolving around sun.

Once upon a time and space, there lived a great scientist. He was explaining how Earth rotated around the sun. One woman disagreed-

"The truth is that our planet is supported by tortoise".

The point Stephen Hawkings was trying to make was that the story of the tortoise is as vague as any of the scientific theories about the universe. Time and again people like Aristotle, Galileo and Einstien have proven existence science incorrect. I have no reason to believe the current science.

I would celebrate new years once we find out from what point the Earth actually starts its revolution around the sun.